For better or worse, or never
I am ready for marriage. Those words might be empty since I’ve never been married and have only been engaged once upon a time ago. It’s true, I have no idea what to expect in a marriage. But, to be…
Category: Journal
Will I fall or will i misstep?
Stop what you’re doing. There’s a song you should listen to. But first, you need to know a little about how this song came about. The artist was struggling with anxiety and depression. He sat down at his piano and…
So you’re failing your online classes
In 2016 I volunteered to go to college online—and I loved it. I didn’t have to drive anywhere or sit through stupid questions that were answered in the teacher’s description if the person had been listening. But now an entire…
Dear unmarried, pregnant Christian
Abortion. Adoption. It takes just 3 syllables each to utter such life-changing words. Yet since the little red line showed up on the pregnancy test those words have circled like vultures in your mind, and each one has its own…
How to feel feelings like a normal person
I grew up hearing “Quit crying or I’ll give you something to cry about.” Any act of anger was doubled-up on and became a battle a child could never win. Privileges were revoked—it felt like I was grounded whenever perfection…
What now
I have a friend who had her whole life planned out. She knew where she’d go to college and she did it. She knew where she wanted a job and she did that too. Me? I flew on the wind…
You were born for THIS – life with covid19
I knew someone a year younger than me who wanted to live in the 1920’s. They fell in love with the glitz and glamour and heteronormative roles of the family that our history books portray. “Honey I’m home. What’s for…
Prickly friendships and cactus friends
“Self love is a good thing but self awareness is more important. You need to once in a while go, ‘Uh I’m kind of an a-hole.’” Louis C.K. It’s been on my mind for a while: I treat Jesus like…
COVID-19: Rooting for Wuhan
“It’s in the US now?” I said through gritted teeth when I first heard the coronavirus (now called COVID-19) was in California. How could the Chinese officials let this happen? They lied, said it was nothing to worry about, and…
Thanks a lot 2020
Instead of making resolutions that I’ll forget by February, every year I pick a word that I want to focus on. In high school it was always “courage” or “perseverance” and last year I made the mistake of choosing “peace,”…