Step 1. Grieve We are told “it’s okay to cry” since elementary school, but crying still makes me feel stupid and ugly so I ignore the impulse until it goes away. However, like an earthquake that causes a tsunami, the…
Going through my break-up with Joel has been a battle against the ocean—some days the waves are small and easy to climb over, others feel like I’m being crushed and pulled under by the riptide. I must have searched for…
“You will lose loved ones because of me,” Jesus promised. I knew what that phrase meant but I didn’t understand it until last night. While we still love them we will lose them. Last night, less than 2 months before…
Valentine’s day. The day in February where love is in the air. Couples go on dates. There is love at first sight as some are struck by Cupid’s arrow. However, is that what Valentine’s day is all about? A day…
Last week I had to get an experimental yellow fever shot with my boss. Thankfully, of the two of us, I was the only one who had a reaction. Within 10 minutes of getting the dose my eyes started to…
Maybe it’s because I’m a writer, but I often get carried away in dreams and “could have been”s and sometimes I mistake my made-up stories for how things actually are. On Thursday it happened again. It’s not the kind of…
I try not to live my life based on 4am thoughts. But sometimes that’s when my mind is the clearest. In my dreams I lose Joel. In my dreams we drift apart. In my dreams I see my perception of…
I didn’t think I could feel any more pain than the night my ex-fiance told me he wanted to see other people. But he promised he loved me, so I stayed loyal to him—dangling like the loose string of a…
“If we’re not engaged by New Years, I’ll pull the plug,” became “My birthday is the cutt-off,” which is now “FINE! I’ll wait forever…” Problem is I’m not great at waiting—especially when it’s a major life event. I don’t like…
I don’t hate the guy who asked me to marry him and then broke up with me three weeks later. I don’t hate the woman who commented on my style, “At least you won’t have to worry about guys noticing…
