I’m scared.
Right now I feel like I’m leaning over the edge at the top of a roller-coaster about to slide down the steepest climb I’ve ever seen. Butterflies are swirling in my stomach. There’s a pinch in the back of my mind, wondering if this was such a good a idea.
If something goes wrong, if I lose my job, the entire economy crashes, the banks default, the government shuts down, anything, I could be stuck with nearly 70k of college debt, and nothing to show for it.
70k. That’s a lot of money. If I had saved every dollar I ever earned since I was 5, I doubt it’d be even close what I have now promised to pay back…
As a full time student I’m be eligible for special grants. But I’m also a full-time employee for a local non-profit. Will I really be able to maintain a 4.6 GPA (that’s my goal) AND work 40 hours AND keep up with all my side-jobs and projects that sustain my sanity.
Seriously, if I didn’t have my side jobs keeping my schedule interesting and stimulating my creative juices, I’d be manic depressive…
I’m not really sure what my future holds. But as long as it’s better than the life of my character in Fall Out 4, I guess it’ll be okay.
But still…maybe I’d be better off facing a DeathClaw…
Karianne is the founder of Windmill Ways. She plays the cello professionally and currently works as an Art Director for a charity. Because she loves animated shows and movies, she studies 3D animation and graduated with a BFA with the unfortunate class of 2020. Her dream vacation would be just staying home, but "home" being a glamorous cabin somewhere in the mountains surrounded by forest.
Favorite band: Lord Huron
Favorite book: This Present Darkness
Favorite quote: "Get all the advice and instruction you can, so you will be wise the rest of your life. You can make many plans, but the Lord’s purpose will prevail." Proverbs 19:20-21 (NLT)
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